A photo series from December 2020/January 2021; developed in March. I knew at this point the website and writing in general were draining activities that had felt forced. I felt I had identified myself as a writer and an artist in a specific medium, with photography as a hobby, and that it was "too late" to change my mind and try other things, or be open to a change.
I was also experiencing feelings of imposter syndrome. I felt like a fraud and a fake by calling myself an artist or a writer or a poet when I wasn't proud of most of my work, and was comparing myself and work to others.
In these photos, I wanted to capture the feelings of transparency I strived to portray in all of my writings and how doing so left me without a lifeline while slowly depleting my vitality as a creative. I also wanted to portray with these photos the guilt that comes with imposter syndrome or feelings of not belonging or being good enough. I hope that is seen through the dying flowers, empty glass, and lack of water or nutrients in a seemingly barren environment.
Maren Hoflund MT HHP, is a massage therapist and holistic health practitioner based in Southern California. Oath of a Pearl is website where articles and creative pieces on different topics within the theme of healing, health, and wellness are formed with the intention to highlight life lessons learned, share ideas, and explore the world we all interact with.