"Untitled"
A photo series from December 2020/January 2021; developed in March. I knew at this point the website and writing in general were draining activities that had felt forced. I felt I had identified myself as a writer and an artist in a specific medium, with photography as a hobby, and that it was "too late" to change my mind and try other things, or be open to a change.

I was also experiencing feelings of imposter syndrome. I felt like a fraud and a fake by calling myself an artist or a writer or a poet when I wasn't proud of most of my work, and was comparing myself and work to others. 

In these photos, I wanted to capture the feelings of transparency I strived to portray in all of my writings and how doing so left me without a lifeline while slowly depleting my vitality as a creative. I also wanted to portray with these photos the guilt that comes with imposter syndrome or feelings of not belonging or being good enough. I hope that is seen through the dying flowers, empty glass, and lack of water or nutrients in a seemingly barren environment. 

I spent a majority of 2020 living with my mom, who I hadn't lived with for 5+ years prior to 2020. These images capture the aspects of her home that let me in, the corners where I found my home with her. All photos were taken on Canon AE-1 with Kodak Gold 200 35mm film and exposed film from 1980. 

Film photographs taken by Michaelanne and I on a disposable film camera during one of her last visits to California, featuring her and I, my boyfriend Mason, and my kitten Jim. 

Film taken by myself and an old friend with Canon AE-1 on Kodak Gold 200 35mm film in Anza Borrego Desert State Park 

Images of my teenage stomping grounds, taken with Canon AE-1 on Kodak film

Shot with Kodak film on a Canon AE-1 by myself and my boyfriend. These photos and more are available to purchase as single prints in the Shop

Slideshow of photos shot on various vintage cameras, in collaboration with Cooper. 

Shot with exposed film on a Canon AE-1